:: Luv_ed ::

At this point of time, I dont have confidence in this family. I'm thinking of breakups. I agree - we're going thru turmoil these few days. I'm scared, and i'm crying deep in my heart. I'm praying hard Mom juz saying what she's been saying all these years. I'm praying and hoping and praying and hoping and praying and hoping hard... Pleaseeee, dont bring us towards THAT end.

Maybe it's juz His tests for us.

~Allahumma inna nas aluka minal khairi kullihi, 'ajilihi wa ajilihi, ma 'alimna minhu wama lam na'lam. Wana 'uzubika minas syarri kullihi, 'ajilihi wa ajilihi, ma 'alimna minhu wama lam na'lam.~

Ya Allah, kami bermohon kepadaMu segala apa yg baik, samada dtgnya lambat atau cepat, yg kami ketahui mahupun tidak. Kami berlindung kepadaMu dari segala apa yg bahaya, samada dtgnya lambat atau cepat, yg kami ketahui mahupun tidak.

posted by Tipah @ 13:02

I decided to take a look @ the contents of this envelope i found in my room.. and guess what? I found Raya cards and birthday cards - both hand-made and not - that dates back to my 16th birthday!!! Wow! I knew that envelope contained cards, but i never knew some dated 5 years back! Touching, i must say.

Brought back memories of a geeky Se7en Loves having crushes on the guys in school, of the Malay Girls' Society (MGS) doing surveys on the malay guys (Gosh, that was kekek!!), of a punk-wannabe Hid (who, btw, have grown up to be a beautiful lady), of boy-hating Lin (who have already gotten married), of warlocks and witches (THAT'S history coz everyone know they became friends) and of school life basically. Boy, do i miss those peeps.. MY peeps. Made me want to go back to those times and be in school - Loo Pui Wah, Anwari and all -

Hmm.. life's more real now. I guess we've all grown up.. learning to treasure friendships and relationships, bearing to struggle with obstacles, miseries and hardships. And i do hope, InsyaAllah, that all of us - guys and gals - have grown up to be stronger pple deep inside of us. And peeps, if u're reading this piece on entry, i want to let it make known to u pple, I MISS YOU ALL!!

posted by Tipah @ 02:16

I've always tot of Dad as a rational person.. irrational at times, but those are seldom. Now, i dont understand. Maybe work pressure is really getting to him.. gets angry for no apparent reason. Made Mom cried juz now rite before buka.. and i HATE anyone who makes her cry. I was angry, yeah.. but the thought of Mom made me kept it.. anger control - good one, there (pats myself)

He came home for a while juz now and immediately "attacked" my bro - accuse him of taking his money. If i hadnt intervene and taken away that belt of his, Bro would have had more welts on him. And if Mom hadnt stopped my mouth, i would have shot him verbally. I dunnoe - he got me there. *Sigh*

I dont really see my bros in my good eyes; but when i see them get beaten, the urge to make it stop is strong, even though they are in the wrong. It hurts me so much to see my bros hurt, it hurts me even more to see Mom cry. I dunnoe.. maybe i'm a girl and we naturally feel that way, or maybe it's the sense of responsibility, or maybe i'm just growing up and understanding what it feels to be hurt - physically and emotionally - coz i've been there. But whatever that reason might be, please dont hurt the ones i love, coz ur hurting me as well.. and ur hurting me bad. *sob*sob*

Mungkin ini hanya ujian dariNya untuk kami sekeluarga... Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hati hamba2Mu ini dalam menghadapi dugaanMu. Tetapkanlah iman kami dan sinarkanlah cahaya kebahagiaan untuk kami sekeluarga. Amin.

posted by Tipah @ 22:33

Semenjak dua menjak ni, setiap aku ku menghulur, mesti akan dibalas huluran tu. Hmmm.. ke mana agaknya keikhlasan sebuah derma tu eh? Ntah ler.. it's like every time i put some cash in a can, i'd get calendars, bookmarks and even a whole meal in a box. Even donation campaigns come with donation draws.. with prizes as big as a car!! The latest SMS Amal TAA-ETF returns an sms with a code for u to keep.. ur chance at the draw. hmm... Interesting. But i'm giving, not askin.. Saya menderma, bukan membeli. If i had wanted to buy, i'd definitely be asking u.. how much. Thanks for the shown appreciation, but a doa will be sufficient. But thank you, nonetheless.

So the next time u r out there collecting funds for some organization which needs it, and i put some notes or coins in that box/container ur holding, please dont give me anything in return. I'd appreciate that. Thanks.

posted by Tipah @ 08:41

Hmmmm.. frens no more like frens... perpecahan perpaduan i call it. Ntah lah eh. Things happened and they're supposed to make u stronger. But no..it happens otherwise. One group here, and one group there.. and i'm in between. One friend here, and one friend there..and again, i'm in between. And to think that it's happened before and again happening twice at almost the same time.. 3 occasions in a span of a month?? erkkk.. what's happening here? haizz.. i realised It's easy to make friends.. and it's even easier to lose them. I wish to keep all of 'em.. but do they? hmm...

posted by Tipah @ 01:34

fuhhh.. betol nyer puas aku tido... terserlah betapa ngantok nyer aku.. dari selepas solat isyak... sampaiii ler kol 1 pagi.. hmmm.. *kira ngan jari* 5 jam aku gone.. fuhhh.... ujan lebat skali.. cam dah brapa tahun tak hujan.. tapi alhamdullillah, sekurang2nya sejuk gak.. takde lah perit sangat nak berposa nanti. Moga2 petang nanti tak panas... hmmm.

Hari ni insyaAllah akan menjadi hari kelima Ramadhan.. dan insyaAllah juga akan menjadi hari kelima aku berpuasa... hmmm.. best nyer berpuasa. Yg tak bestnyer, puasa ngan tekak yg perit dan gatal... dugaan tol!! Anyway peeps, slamat berpuasa, eh!

posted by Tipah @ 03:30

It's been confirmed. Tomorrow marks the start of a new fasting month.. Alhamdullillah, aku telah dikurniakan usia untuk melihat Ramadhan al mubarak bertandang lagi. Selamat berpuasa ku tujukan buat semua yg sedang membaca this piece of entry. Semoga puasa kali ini akan merupakan yg lebih baik dari yg sesudahnya. InsyaAllah ~~

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Sahaja aku berpuasa esok hari di bulan Ramadhan fardhu tunai
kerana Allah Ta'ala.
Amin.

posted by Tipah @ 21:51

Affidee
My former classmate for the entire sec school life.. See her fantasies and encounters with Malay stars! ahakz!!

That's how Ghazzie Dearest described my bloggie... WUTTT?? fantasies my ass!! Tapi tak kisah ler...

Have not been feeling well sejak Monday when i fasted. Finished repaying my debt.. Lucky for me, it's only a day!! Phew.. relief relief.. the result of delaying what's wajib.. haiyerrrr!!!

And hid!! I was reading my past entries.. and i juz realised u were actually planning for a bbq on ur birthday and i was waiting for it... hmmm.. so where's the bbq ar??? Hehe.. i guess both of us got buzy and forgot. Lucky for you! Or i'd have tuntut that bbq.. Heh!!

Salam Ramadhan to all u peeps looking at this particular piece of entry!! Posa eh, jgn nak ponteng jerrrr.. Tuhan marah tauuuuu!!!

Btw, i DON'T fantasize k!!! :)

posted by Tipah @ 23:40

This particular entry is dedicated to another one of my 6ix Loves who turned 21 yesterday.. Sorry i've forgotten!! *hangs head in shame*

To Reny Vivienna Binte Hamzah, i'm wishing you a very happie birthday!!! Though i'm late.. but hey!! If we were in New York, it'll still be your birthday!! Heh!! Best of wishes for another great year ahead. Semoga hidupmu akan sentiasa diredhaiNya. Semoga rahmatNya menjadi hadiahmu. Semoga sentiasa ceria di samping mereka2 yg disayangi. Dan semoga dimurahkan rezeki dan disihatkan badan. Insyaallah!! Selamat Hari Lahir dan salam rindu from me~

posted by Tipah @ 01:03

I've got the blues...
Oh Tuesday blues...
No whites, No Reds..
Oh just the blues...

Ahakz.. in the office.. feeling bored.. typical Tuesday. While other peeps get work blues on Monday, i get it on Tuesday. Slow reaction, i guess.. heh!

posted by Tipah @ 15:30

For the first time ever, we only stayed at the bitch.. erm i mean beach.. for 2 hours only... the shortest swim ever. Setakat lepaskan geram sebelum puasa mula. Ahakz.. Went to the airport after that, had "dinner" @ Mcdonalds.. and guess who we met?? Time's up! Jalalludin Hassan!!! In his most non-starry way ever.. Eating a 25-cent ice-cream.. Heh!!

And Roslan Shah is an entertainer... caught his stint at the expo. Kekek sakk.. pecah perut aku tgk.. tak sia2 last minute melencong sana.

posted by Tipah @ 23:24

Today mark another day in history - Safarimelayu's very first gathering after the zoo trip got postponed... Abg Z, kempunan tau... wakaka! Anyway, today went well, alhamdullillah. After karaoke, dinner @ bitch rd.. erm, i mean beach rd. Finally get to meet the faces behind the fingers. One big family.. a lot of smiling faces.. and crazy Sheila.. giler sak tu gadis.. aku ingat Abg Adie aku tebiat... Si Sheila pon sket lebih kurang cam si abg penyu tu gak.. i dont haf the pics yet but when i get it from them somehow, i'll post them. Anyway, thanks Abg Spoilers for organizing the gathering. Thanks Abg Z, Kak Emma, Abg Mons, Kak She, Kak Dee, Ment, Biol, Abg Adie and that certain lady for making an appearance.. hmm.. did i miss anyone? And special thanks to Abg Adie for the satay... 16th buka posa tu sponsor satay lagik tak eh?? haha... Anyway, i had fun. And i'm still waiting for the zoo trip tau Abg Z!!

posted by Tipah @ 23:05

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posted by Tipah @ 01:37